dear friend, believe in your choice, it's a good one.
to my 2 friends i'm sure you know who you guys are: oh man we're all starting a new journey on our own just when we all got so used to each other's support and presence. but deep in my heart, knowing that we have this special strong bond, it keeps me positive. the paradox together apart becomes so apt and true. i'm already missing those self-high sessions and heart to heart talks. i'll be looking forward to december!
gosh i'm kind of excited yet nervous.
love you like a sister;
1:16 am
Friday, August 15, 2008
If You're Not The One
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call? If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I'll never know what the future brings But I know you're here with me now We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife? (should be husband ah i'm not getting wife)
I don’t know why you’re so far away But I know that this much is true We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with And I wish that you could be the one I die with And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today ‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right And though I can’t be with you tonight You know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
i'm going to devise a new me. the old me was phong the new me is zhang hui ping. zzzz i was talking rubbish douya haha. but about the new me part i'm not. actually i think i want to be the old me way back before. the one who was very unfeeling that dawn thought i was the last one who will ever get attached among my friends. the part where i was very cold towards such things. i need to tune. i need to get used to it so that when the day comes i'll be ready to let go of it if i feel it's not gonna work anymore. douya is right even if i cry an ocean better than justin timberlake cry a river nothing will ever change.
quick i need a new me, fast. get a grip on yourself zhang hui ping. you need to clear things out of your system.
love you like a sister;
12:49 am
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
i think this was the nicest so far :)
this was douya's
from this:
quite interesting right? one more to go! i like douya's:
and mine haha:
and from this!
WOO NEWBIE POWER!~
*edit
new ones!
guess which was done by who!
guess again!
love you like a sister;
11:49 pm
Monday, August 11, 2008
omg i just realised how interesting texturing or whatever you call that is. i was playing around and i got this:
from this:
sorry for being cheap thrill but i think it's such an amazing thing. and i remember wq being quite good at it.
love you like a sister;
11:07 pm
Sunday, August 10, 2008
i don't know how much longer i can hold out. even if i can't hold out anymore you're not going to hold on either as proven to me before.
and i'm just being perfectly normal is that something wrong?
omg the russian gymnast svetlana khorkina who dazzled me years ago not competing in this year's olympics i didn't know she was so old alr. so sad :( and so i was left with watching her past olympics' videos. douya she's so good right?
love you like a sister;
8:09 pm
omg dear friends, sleepovers are not for sleeping! why do we always end up not staying up? we haven't even gotten to round one of cluedo. aaahhhh. and i can't believe douya had so many rounds of sleeping and she only stepped out of the room like once in 14 hours or more?! haha. and she was making sounds in her sleep! do i induce nightmares or something? lychee liquor is so yummy until you realise you feel kind of dehydrated. haha. i think wq has silently become an alcoholic.
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY WOOO!~~
gosh i'm so freaking bored i'm finding something to do i shall go try my luck at watching olympics again. bye.
love you like a sister;
1:04 am
Thursday, August 07, 2008
everyday i'm fighting a war to clear stuff in my room. who would have thought clearing out stuff to throw away was so damn difficult? everytime i question a box of unused/useless stuff, she gets angry. i have no reason why. and she has been nagging at me to clear my room and so here i am, i have been clearing my room but she's getting angry?! omg she's damn hard to please i don't know what she wants i'm so sick of it. so many things in my room are hers which is keeps saying she'll look through before she decides what to do with it and yet she has been scolding me to clear all my stuff in my room. i have no idea what she wants. i'm having a major cleanup in my room and thank goodness my dad and bro are doing something to help me or i would have been that 20 year old girl who commited suicide printed in the newspaper. seriously. and i've uncovered so many boxes to my digust and shock (of my life) at what she has been totally keeping and adding to my room. i just want to swear right now and maybe fling some things around. i'm so angry and i'm trying to calm myself down. seriously, what is your problem?
this is driving me crazy but the sake of myself i will carry on with this madness with her. let's all get crazy together. i just want to clear up my room.
love you like a sister;
12:33 am
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
i'm
an idealist
and
a sufferer.
nobody knows.
say it again
love you like a sister;
2:44 am
Monday, August 04, 2008
HELLO! announcement to make! this coming friday everyone invited for an afternoon cycling session at ecp (meet at about 3) with evening at wq's house(about 7 plus) with dvds( cherie's long awaited romance comedy Amityville House haha) and games (cluedo?) and drinks(wq's lychee liquor that she claims is nice)! and sleepover for those who can make it :) wq bought ugly betty which we may watch!
this message is for: wq, douya (try asking gwen!), huihui (wanna ask shou?:D), cherie, sylvia, louie, phy, dawn.
SPREAD THE WORD! THANKS! btw, kai is not included cos she will be in china! zzzz
and kai thinks that she can see me as a magazine editor. i think it's quite cool it shall be one of my options :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI!
*edit
just watched finish Hana Yori Dango 2 which leaves me feeling empty as usual. gosh i hate the after-effects of drama serials man haha. nevertheless i always end up finding myself addicted to them. zzz i just find it kind of appealing maybe because i secretly wish that i was that lead girl. haha huihui's fantasy. but really, such sweet and whatever stuff only happens in the dramas and it makes girls become too hopeful of what would never come true. sigh. but we can always indulge in our dreams right? haha.
i'm